When looking back at the month of January I can't help but feel blessed. I honestly don't know where the month went. I feel like it was yesterday that I was sitting in a living room of my friends and boyfriend counting down the seconds until it turned 2014. Professionally this month has made me feel like I was in limbo. Searching for a job and wondering what the lords plan was for me. In my personal life I feel like this month has been amazing. Seeing a friendship I thought I was losing in October slowly get stronger this month has been wonderful. It was strange moving and settling in at my parents house and seeing all of my things reappear in the room I grew up in. Something I have realized while making my video and reflecting back on this month is that I thought I was scared about the idea of settling back into my parents house, but that wasn't the case at all. What I was scared of was the idea of settling. It has been a long time since I have truly felt at home and "settled in" and not feeling like the floor was going to disappear from right under me. I have known in my heart the Central Valley is my home since I moved back from LA in April 2013, but it wasn't until feeling safe and settled did I realize it was a reality. I know in every post I say I am so thankful for everyone in my life and not to sound like a broken record or anything; I truly am thankful. I don't know what I would do without the people around me willing to talk and just be there to listen when I found myself stressed. I admit I was terrified of what January would hold for me. But with fear it allowed me to depend on prayer more than anything. Let me tell you, God is so good.
My December.
December is always a magical month. The month was full of birthdays and holiday festivities. It being the last day of the month I think it is only appropriate that I reflect on the last year. I can't help but to think about what I was doing and how I was feeling this time last year. The year of 2013 has really blown me away. I went into this year with the goal of making myself happy again. God seriously has shaken my world. A year ago I was living in LA pretty miserable missing my family and friends. Knowing I wasn't meant to be there. I moved back to Modesto got a job in SF before finally getting a job in Modesto where I am living. Recently getting laid off which has made me move back into my parents house. I ended the year getting baptized which was one of the greatest experiences of my life to date. I really am not sure what Gods plan is for me in the year 2014 but if it's anything like 2013 I'm pretty excited to see the year unfold. This year I have seen a huge shift in who my truest friends are and the company I keep. I am so thankful for everyone in my life.
My November.
The month of November is a month we take a moment to give thanks. I can't even begin to describe all the things I am thankful for. I am so incredibly happy and thankful I am here living in Central California and am able to be around the people who I care about so much. This month has been filled with food, friends, family, and Jesus. This month started off rough for me but I was able to find peace in friendships ending and new ones forming. If there is one thing I can take from this month it is the fact that God is amazing. This is my November.
My October.
October. My favorite season and my favorite month. I have so much to say about this month. To keep it simple... I have a lot to be thankful for in the month of October. I have spent it with my amazing friends, and family. I have spent it celebrating the start to my 23rd year in this world. Playing in fall leaves, carving pumpkins, going to soccer games, attending Halloween parties, and just enjoying my life. I am so thankful for every person who has inspired me, and given me hope during this month. I am thankful for my amazing parents and nephews who I got to spend my birthday with. Here is a mere glimpse into my October.