My January.

When looking back at the month of January I can't help but feel blessed. I honestly don't know where the month went. I feel like it was yesterday that I was sitting in a living room of my friends and boyfriend counting down the seconds until it turned 2014. Professionally this month has made me feel like I was in limbo. Searching for a job and wondering what the lords plan was for me. In my personal life I feel like this month has been amazing. Seeing a friendship I thought I was losing in October slowly get stronger this month has been wonderful. It was strange moving and settling in at my parents house and seeing all of my things reappear in the room I grew up in. Something I have realized while making my video and reflecting back on this month is that I thought I was scared about the idea of settling back into my parents house, but that wasn't the case at all. What I was scared of was the idea of settling. It has been a long time since I have truly felt at home and "settled in" and not feeling like the floor was going to disappear from right under me. I have known in my heart the Central Valley is my home since I moved back from LA in April 2013, but it wasn't until feeling safe and settled did I realize it was a reality. I know in every post I say I am so thankful for everyone in my life and not to sound like a broken record or anything; I truly am thankful. I don't know what I would do without the people around me willing to talk and just be there to listen when I found myself stressed. I admit I was terrified of what January would hold for me. But with fear it allowed me to depend on prayer more than anything. Let me tell you, God is so good.