I honestly can't tell you where the month of May went. It seems like the longer the month the faster it goes. When I look back on the month of May the first thing that comes to my mind is family and friends. This month has been spent with my family... and friends that I consider family. I honestly couldn't be happier about it. I found myself spending the majority of my time in Stockton. Not just because of my boyfriend, friends, or church... but also because of work. It's amazing to see that God is working in my life and is continuing to pull me towards the city of Stockton. That also comes with the struggle of being patient and waiting for Gods timing. I couldn't even tell you how many times I was asked this month when I am moving to Stockton. All I know is, in Gods timing that will happen. As much as I would love to live in Stockton already... I know I am meant to be in Modesto at home. God made that pretty clear to me in the month of December when I lost my job and moved home. I love spending time with my nephews and with my parents. I honestly don't know how often that would happen if I didn't live at home, let alone the same town. I am so incredibly thankful for my parents. I am so blessed that I can talk to my mom about anything.
In the past few months I felt like I was constantly trying to not let work completely consume me. It's seriously been a constant battle. By the end of the month I finally felt like I was able to find that balance. Of course there were days when work stressed me out. However, as the month came to a close I was starting to realize I wasn't feeling that weight of work when I left the office. I definitely can thank my boyfriend and parents for calling me out when they noticed me emailing after work or on the weekend. Making time to just read my bible before work, or to make sure I left the office during my lunch hour really helped keep me sane this month. The month of May has definitely had its ups and downs like any other month. I found myself feeling a little more emotional and dependent on God. It definitely allowed me to open up to people and to not be worried about sharing how I was feeling in that moment. I am so incredibly thankful for everyone in my life. I honestly don't know what I would do without the people in my life who are just there for me when I need someone to talk to.